Hard to Find

It has been now almost 12 years that we haven’t met,beyond the belief, but the bitter truth. We have completed our schooling, graduation, got a good job and now stepped into the most crucial part of our life. Even the big day “Marriage” was held without you.

When we look back, especially, the good old days, we don’t even realize that we have lost you. It is like, you have gone somewhere and will soon come to meet us. But yes, there are some times when we actually realize that you won’t come now. We have treasured the beautiful memories and pictures, but were unable to save you.

At times, I wish why you don’t show your presence when we actually need you.  From where ever you are, I want you to cover me against some people.  I want to talk you, have desire to discuss so many things and to share all the good things, need to show so many things and even want to complaint. I want to stand beside you like I found myself in the pictures that I have treasured. But failed every-time.

 Again, again and again- It is hard to find you.

I Am Looking for You Again

It was my board examination; I reached at school gate.

I was nervous and trying not to be fazed.

Found most of my mates with their father,

Suddenly, the queasy feeling changed in to somber.

I was catching the words while passing from the notice board;

“To do and not to do” - they were advising to their wards.

Trying to pay heed simultaneously diverting my mind,

Looked at my watch and caught the correct time.

The bell rang and I was in the corridor;  
Started looking for my hall on each floor.

Dealing with that disheartened feeling, I stepped in the room.

Penned down my roll number with trembling hand.

Exams were over and the result got declared,

I was looking for you to share some words.

Years passed and I completed my degree.

With innumerable talks and news, we were alone many time.

Now it was an interview and I stepped out with the same anxiety,

Got my first job and rushed towards my bike.

On the way, I had so many things in my mind;

Uttered everything in front of mum, Again I missed you; it was also your right.

Bad! The day was same, when the god cast his greedy eyes upon us and took you away.

With the mixed emotions and I moved on again.

I am looking for you again with innumerable talks and news.